Creativity and vlogs

I truly believe what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Throughout my life I've experienced a lot of pain and disappointment, particularly in the last eight years. I kept fighting, never gave in and kept hope alive because I knew it could be so much worse. However, if given the opportunity to change the past I wouldn't because without these trials and tribulations I wouldn't be the person I am today.

This past year of my life has been extraordinary. So many major positive changes have transpired that I don't even recognize the person I used to be. Although it has been a long time coming, I can truly say I am happy with my accomplishments in life. I am confident with myself and who I have become. I want to keep growing and to do that, I feel I need to find some form of creative expression.

I see photography and short films as a form of creative expression I can be passionate about. I've always been fascinated with photography and film but never pursued it. Looking back I think it had to do with a lack of self esteem and self worth. In art passion and emotion create the strongest pieces. Your life experiences intertwine with your creative vision creating something truly unique that shines through to your audience. However, if you can't believe in yourself how can you believe in or be confident about anything you create?

In the past I've always been behind the scenes taking the pictures or filming the parties, but I am not the same person I used to be. Thanks to the atypical experiences in my life, and the amazing events that transpired this past year, I know I have the desire, self esteem, self worth and emotion to step in front of the camera.

Although the real youtubers are inspirational, I am not exploring film and photography to follow the rest of the zombie affected masses. I am interested in making Vlogs because I am truly drawn to this form of artistic expression, it is also a great learning opportunity.

For those who actually read my blog, you know I have a lot to say, sometimes even too much :-P. I love to write but can't be sitting in front of a computer for hours writing nor can I write freehand, it ends up just being a waste of paper and I can't edit it easily. Vlogs are an ideal solution because I can say what I want instead of writing it, I can express myself creatively and intellectually, and it will allow me to explore film and photography at the same time. Whether people will actually want to watch me and/or hear what I have to say, I really don't care...I am doing this for myself :-P .....

If nothing else I will learn to make the best damn birthday video's in my family :-).

So now I just have to find a camera. The search is on....

MsZ